a little goodbye

sometimes i don't change things because i'm afraid of what i'll miss. goodbyes are never easy especially when this last year has taught me more about loving and caring for people, and yes getting attached, than i ever thought possible. how could i leave that? my nieces and nephews are young, how can i miss out on them growing up? but i have to grow up too. and sometimes that means leaving family and friends behind, saying a prayer of faith, and moving across the country to pursue a dream. 

it's not easy to leave a place that taught me to love and to do so in ways even i didn't think possible. to leave a place where my testimony of my savior's love grew immensely and was manifest time and time again for others as well as for myself. and to leave a group of people that taught me to accept love, that i was cared about and had something to offer. how could life be any better than what i was already experiencing? 

but with work being such a big part of my life, a part of my life that i did not love or even somewhat enjoy, and a part of my life that i had complete control over, a change was needed. good things take work and sacrifice and an investment of time and emotion. and i need to continue making investments of myself to see those good things in all areas of life.

i shouldn't doubt that the lord intends to continue blessing my life and good things will continue to come, for me as well as for those i love and won't see as often as i once did. 

but still, goodbyes aren't easy.

survived arrival

well, five days down and spirits are still high.

i flew in to boston tuesday morning after a tearful goodbye to my family, leaving behind all but what would fit into four suitcases (i just couldn't make three work. . . ). most called me brave or full of faith, i like to call it a little on the crazy side but then again that sounds like me.

natali and i took the red eye from slc to jfk, so glad she was there to hold my hand! i went on to boston. one of my worst fears: losing my luggage. including having someone walk off with it. worst fear: confirmed. there i was waiting with my push cart thing, bag #1, bag #2, waiting, waiting. nothing. panic began to set in as i found the baggage claim office. between jfk and bos i'd decided to take a later flight rather than trying to make a tight connection. so what did my luggage decide to do? take the earlier flight. bag #3 and #4 sat waiting for me. how nice of them!

a taxi drive and $60 later i pulled up to my new home. lexington, ma. sounds so distinguished. i'm living with a couple who rents out four, sometimes five, of their rooms to people in transition. the perfect set up for getting settled. minus the commute. they give piano lessons in the evenings and stay up late chatting with us. so comfortable here. their home is beautiful. after being so tired from a red eye flight all i wanted was a shower and nap. there i was in the shower, looked up, and saw crown molding. and i smiled. that was a very good sign.

4 weeks notice

well it's official.  either i'm moving to boston to start school in january or i need to find a new job.  either way i'm done with mine officially on december 20th!!

so i had a little boston cream pie yogurt to celebrate.



wuthering heights

fact: i bought wuthering heights based on sandra bullock's saying she reads it every christmas on the proposal.  not that it has anything to do with christmas. i don't think. but she was a book editor in the movie so it has to be good right? oh and the small detail that it's an english classic.

jane eyre is one of my favorites so i'm hoping her sister writes as well.

happiness: my choice

for some reason i got it into my head that my life would just 'fall into place'. because that's what happens to everyone around me. it just worked out. didn't it? so apparently i've been waiting. and waiting. and now i'm 26 and just realizing now that my life is what i make of it. that i am 'dripping with potential' as my old bishop used to say. and i can be anything i want to be.

i can't control everything that happens to me. for that i can choose to be keep a happy attitude. but what i can control why am i not making of it the very best? what am i waiting for?

and so, as of two weeks ago, i am pursuing what will make me happy. because i deserve it. we all deserve it.  my attitude is that of i-am-in-control-of-my-life-and-its-going-to-be-good. so good. and now is the perfect time.



last sunday was this ces devotional entitled 'we are the architects of our own happiness'. no better time could this have come. in so many different ways.  listen to it. you'll love it.

more apples

the caramel apple tradition carried on in my ward.  

i love the ladies in my relief society. they are all so talented and beautiful in their own ways. we always have such a good time when we get together. combine it with yummy treats and you can't get much better.

halloween cuties

what's one of the fastest costumes you can put together the night you need it?  a witch. in a tulle tutu.  and there you have it.

saw these two little cuties halloween night.  julie was all hyped up on sugar and only wanting more. mel was her somber little self.  so cute.  sure missed mason though.

caramel apples have become a fall/halloween tradition. granny smith apples to counteract all the sweet goodness.  favorites include white chocolate with cinnamon sugar, white chocolate with toasted coconut, milk chocolate with pretzels.  so gooyummy.